Humility. Not my strong suit. The good thing about recognizing your weaknesses is that it enables change. 2 Corinthians 12:3, “ My grace is sufficient for thee; for my strength is made perfect in weakness.” Can I just stop and say Amen? Is it not so cool, that God uses our faults to make us stronger in Him? I challenge you to write down the things you dislike about yourself, or things that you wish you could change and start praying over these things. Y’all know that one of my huge flaws was anger, and God has been faithful in showing me how to leave that at the alter. I am forever grateful.
I have many faults, as we all do, but there is such power in owning up to them versus hiding behind excuses, or placing the blame on others. Do not play the victim, saying ” I’m behaving this way because so and so did this and it affected me…” No, we must own our faults, own that we have the choice and the power to control ourselves with God’s guidance. Being humble is something I struggled with, and I want to put it this way…because I don’t think highly of myself, I’m not prideful but I can be selfish, and put my needs above others. C.S. Lewis wrote, “true humility is not thinking less of yourself, it is thinking of yourself less.”
Becoming a mother wasn’t easy for me, it broke me in more ways than one but MY GOD! I am so happy it did! It’s what I needed, and the only way my eyes could be opened to my own selfishness. I struggled HARD, it’s embarrassing to say, but I’m so thankful for God’s grace, and a husband who loved me through it and helped me even on my ugliest of days. I’m crying thinking back on those first few weeks, and how hard it was but now I’m happy crying that God brought me through and that I’m able to look back and rejoice.
Humility is being dependent on God. Patience is humility’s cousin. LOL-well I don’t know about cousin, but they’re definitely related. James 1:3-4, “ Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work; that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting NOTHING.” Trusting God in everything, that is how you become humble. I hope you get that, please. I have been studying this for two years, and it’s so, so, so, so simple. I overcomplicate literally everything and also try to do everything my way. 1 Peter 5:6: Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: casting ALL your care upon him; for he careth for you.”
We take so much into our own hands, without so much as a prayer. Guilty. 🙋♀️But when we surrender to God, humility is the fruit. Rain or shine, no matter our situation, we can stand with Jesus, on the rock that doesn’t move. We will be content. We will know our happiness doesn’t rest in worldly matters or materialist things. We won’t wait for things to make us happy. If you’re not happy now, then you won’t be happy when you reach your goals.
I posted on Instagram about the Enneagram, and how it’s being used as a spiritual wisdom tool now even though it’s a really old concept. Which is great, but it is just that, a tool. It is never going to be 100% accurate. God is our creator, he knows our every flaw and our greatest strengths. But it’s pretty cool and it helped me to pinpoint some things I wasn’t aware of about myself or maybe that I was aware of but didn’t know how to put into words. And now that I am aware, I can make changes and grow. Again, I’m a 7 which, is The Enthusiasts. I don’t want to go into huge detail but 7’s are optimistic, and always looking for the fun in everything. We need to be entertained constantly, the down side to that is we are always longing to be filled. We hate being bored.
I heard someone speaking on this and she said that if we can recognize this longing and allow the Holy Spirit to fill us, then we can stop looking for the next best thing. The Holy Spirit is what’s going to keep our wondering heart happy. And I loved that so much, because I had never been able to put that into words. My desire has always been to be a humble/content person and I look up to my husband and my daddy so much because they are just that. So, I’ve learned when I start having that longing of wanting more or to do more, I start thinking and saying the things I’m grateful for and allow the Holy Spirit to fill my day. And becoming a mother has test my patience greater than I could have ever imagined, and has made me put the needs of others before my own. I’m so grateful for what God is showing me and how He’s changing me.
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