Y’all might have noticed I deleted my blog post last week. More people probably didn’t notice or care, but I do. I had wrote a post sharing some of my favorite accessories that I’m loving right now. And if you had read my IG caption everything from photos, losing my phone, the camera remote not working, and then yesterday realizing the remote is now MIA)– basically nothing was smooth sailing.
I follow a lot of lifestyle, fashion bloggers that I absolutely adore and even get a lot of encouragement from, so my prayer is that I can write this post with compassion and from my own walk and what God is calling for me to do with my blog. I never in a million years would want to offend anyone because my walk is different than yours. Yours is different from mine, and being a style blogger is a lot of hard work, it might not look like it but it takes a lot of effort, and it’s way more than a pretty picture. And I love seeing outfit ideas and I believe 100% in what they are doing and I love reading their own individual why they are blogging.
I started this whole blogging thing with full-hearted intentions to value humility, which may seem like a random word, but it’s quite intentional. When I was thinking and praying about starting a blog, God kept speaking this word over me. Humility. Why? Because 1.) It’s something I struggle with. 2.) In today’s world, I know a lot of other people do too. How do I know this? Erm, just a little thing called the comparison trap and/or the FOMO epidemic. You might not even realize that is a thing, but social media can be damaging to our mental health if we don’t acknowledge it. Do you walk away feeling encouraged from social media? More times than not we might leave a little envious, or even worse compare our lives or ourselves to someone else. This isn’t what God wants, He wants us to know that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. We are unique and our purpose and identity rest fully in Jesus.
At the time I kept saying the word humbling, trying to come up with something cute and easy to remember. And I kept thinking okay, what rhymes or has a nice ring to it? Then the word bumbling came up, and I was like Oh, how cute! Bee’s bumble. OH! OH!- The HUMBLING BEE. TA-DA, and The Humbling Bee was born. And what’s even more hilarious– as I’m writing this God is talking and saying, What do bee’s do, Denise? Bee’s work, y’all. That’s what I want to do, I want to earnestly strive for a life of humility.
God wants us to be humble, he calls us to be like Jesus. And if I could narrow down one word to describe Jesus, I can’t think of a more perfect word. He was a servant. (I had to come add this in, because today (Sunday the 24th) at church, this was the whole message and the whole time I was like YESSSS, Jesus! Exactly, what I was writing about and meditating on all week. I love when things like that happen! It’s even greater clarity). Being a servant doesn’t come naturally for us, 9 times out of 10, we think of ourselves more than others. Humility is active, we diligently have to strive for it. Hence, worker bees! God’s so cool, I’m always amazed at how He teaches me.
When I had published that post last week, it was like God kept speaking to me. My heart kept having that tugging feeling, and I kept wondering who am I serving here with that post? Am I causing someone to spend money that they don’t have, or to portray a life that is better than others. In a world of having more and buying more is king, I don’t want live that way. I want to know and live like we aren’t defined by what we wear. Having that perfect accessory, that amazing outfit, or the car that we can barely afford the car payment isn’t going to bring us happiness. Our only true joy is found in God’s grace.
I know this and can speak from experience, because about a year, I had been longing for a Tahoe. I love them and I hate saying that, because it’s just a car. It’s very materialistic, but I love them. And it’s not like I can roll up to the pearly gates and Jesus will say, “nice ride, come on in.” LOL- but you know what I mean, I wanted one and I wanted one baddddd. Well, I thought I had found the most perfect one, great deal, low milage, all the above and I was so excited (And mind you, I had a perfectly fine car. Didn’t need a different vehicle, just simply wanted one.) Long story short, that car ended up biting us in the butt. We lost so much money, and still trying to sort through things. Ah, lessons learned the hard way–typical me.
Moving on, I’m not saying creating this type of content and to make money from a blog/social media is a sin or wrong or whatever…shoot, I’d love to make money from home one day. And I’m not saying I wouldn’t ever use affiliate links, because they can be so so helpful if someone really wants to know where you got a certain piece. I hope this makes sense, and isn’t coming across negatively or ugly towards people who create this sort of content. I truly believe they are helping people just as well, there’s nothing better than having confidence in your outfit. I’m in a better mood when I like what I’m wearing, just saying. Is that wrong, no..haha maybe. Idk, but it’s the truth.
I’ve prayed about it and God knows my heart. This was God speaking to my heart and what he wants me to do. I want to truly be a humble person. I know Jesus wants that too, He’s called for me to seek humility and by gosh, that’s what I want to try to do. I’d love for y’all to let me know what you would want to read on here? What areas you struggle with? Spiritually or heck, even being a momma. I’m the most struggling mama you’ve ever seen, but I’d love to encourage and be able to serve y’all. What is it about social media that you love/don’t love? Comment below or on IG.
Also, thanks for coming alongside with me on this roller coaster ride, where I don’t know what the heck I’m doing.